I'm Leaving You Now, Shyama*
Shyama, I'm leaving you now.
I was only tricked into calling you "Mother."
You are the stone-hearted daughter
of the stony mountain god.
By your magic, you made me
hard-hearted too - until now.
Today I see the face of my real mother
and melt into tears, Mother!
I'm not beguiled by black anymore,
now that light has charmed me.
You had me deceived,
and now I've deceived you.
I've recovered from your spell,
and I go to the lap of my mother, Mother!
* Shyama is another name for Kali, meaning "The Dark One." In Tagore's
dance-drama Balmiki-pratibha [The Genius of Valmiki], Valmiki, the
legendary sage and "first poet" of the Indian tradition, is portrayed as a
Kali-worshiping bandit who comes to eschew violence and shifts his
allegiance to Sarasvati, the goddess of poetry and music. This song is
Valmiki's famous farewell to Kali from the work.