Bengali essay by Yashodhara Raychaudhuri

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AOAl @Ac lc

sro OMof

Ur BSA^@ AOAl @Ac lc ~@, BSA^@ AUvU TFwABS @ @Ac oS cqA j@ZS vU vS UB UB gc @ cq, AcZF ~cpA@ SfU  R Ai O cUUS, cU oS, Ur ~T T @U@ cAXoBfcf jS @TS Uwa ?

~cpA@ SfU , @Ac A TU@, @Ac R ~cpA@ L Oncf, ~UOS@ R c^UZ@ Acl Ae, jJ cq UU wA~Jv  w jAU caS | cq @U@ avc ~cpA@ R @Ac, @ ASv AA, @ ~vT wc @cFew ASB  aaS, @ j@ T aAv cq w^TUUZ@ (@r@ ) | @Ac g c  ~c ro c  SS An@ v@ Sv @S,  @A ~Uc T g @ RS@ coS S | TSn  A-A Fv @, wJ w TU ~ rAw UFeO Tmv |

A@ Ur T ~ZF Bw jJ cq@ j@ @  av @Ac oS cqA aA U jq jv  wa | ~c S ~c S @R, AvA@v @v, @FA A AvA@v MJa, ASB cA cA Aw ST^^ @ j@v U  Uqa | oS gc, o A@ @ cU, Acr ATU cm, @ ck ?

c ~ ~w AS ~AN AsAS cO S@U @aS R@, AAS US wArfU cT^f @Ac fAoSF OoF |

~BR, jZS, mSf cf^ U aS AwSdT, UU  s c sJ caS, J ToF fAoSF Sq | AS jZS wmv B wArfU cT^f AcAS rKgw  j@v g@ U S @aS | @U cq j MJaS  fAoSF@ mvrS Z  o H jAaU oS | @U  ~AN RS @ZS TUqOA@ TO, @ZS ~o@U, @ZS qvSrS, jT SSS ~Z ~mAm OUAaU |

jqc ~Z  oS q @ @, q    BS | c gw | BU m j@ avZv empA @Tf oS, ~c T j@Av @A O@A @ @ | avZv @A O@A cUq vF Sq, A Sq, @S@T IvITU Sq | ccc@ TFSB @ T v RAv ~ ASv ~AU AO | cA@v TA@FU w OU | q  cF@-j@, qAv~q (qASA vv qS@rS) jce mAUqAv | pAcf s s w OZ Z cI s S, R A@av nAS@ SO,  cq oS ca  AS c @  s | BUqA cqTU, wAU yrSf, @U@ cqTU (jc IvITU ~ vAcU AS AS), o Acfv c Ti fAoSF ~@U wArfU cT^f ~S  A cq r f BUS ~SS AaU | cqTU T j@v cArAS aAv AS , AcrK eZF @, a j@v ~ov AcS BSF WWA @, aR  @U@  | ZS q vqAv c TFUA q S oS |   ~AcSr OMof @ S | gU@ j@@U @Ac UZ rZ AaU |

c, fAoSF ~aS A@ ~aS S, jTS j@ AXo AS oS@ U @ Z QT AhaUS j@Avq @H : fAoSF ~U cB ST@ @Ac | @Ac S cU RS@ cAXoBfcf cUq gU | @H @Ac AS j@@U AUZS cv, A@ cAXoBfcf  sc  @ ~ UZS S | jZS AS gvg @S | vcU vSTxv @ d @ wS BU, AcrK AvAg SS ~SS RS@ Z R s | AS cT Z wArfU cT^f C Ac S | ~ Zc OJAO @ cUS | s TS  j@Av dLkH AcK cUaS | sTS, AS sZS vcU AS cUS, TS  TBLL AS cUaS | sZS J @A cUS, rf @vrS S | AvAg  ~c AcK ITU Sq, TT AS s s ZAr q cU  | o AUAcAv Uq U | AvAg jUq o AUAcAv R s | ~c AUAcAv Uq o AvAg ~ s | @Sv ~w ? @Sv  ? no PU ~ PUo n T, jq rR @S ToS Sq | s@, fAoSF ~U j@BS AUAcAv, jce OT @ OTAO@, s@S AcKq ~UOS@U J@ AvAg Z s | j@BS c TA@S ~AgS ~TA@ cB  g j AcZF US o j@BS cB gf SA@, AsAS US Aw AcZF aS, J B @U T ZZ  ABg A Ov | jq AcK ~UOS OUAaU r, j@BS TSmAL@ (AcAr AAwv jZS  ~AS) j@BS FUqgUABmv (--AcrK) jce fAoSF : jq ASBS TU Av ~UOS @US,  OvU jq   A@S jq AcK |  AvAg Zq  oS J@ S @ BS O, fA, @U cUAaUS TqwSv ca, jZS gU ~aS U ?

Rr @ j@v ATA, cU, ~m QfH wU g ~, S  !

A@, jZAS AvAg ~S@ ZUT s !

RT, Rv ~c AAv vAU@mv U SA@ ?

AAv ? ~FJ... cFJ .. fA, Rv  S qS AaU ZUT | SR @AaUT, qAS, UqS jSwB |

cS A@ @, AAv AaU  | ~AT rsFrf |

oS c@ ~c PSrF c wAaU | c ~B fA@ Ur ~ Z Zc c@ cU   | A@ jZS j@v j@v @ vSrS ca | j@v ~wq JA@ A Z ja, r@ ~SU g ia | ~UA WAK T @ Wxv aS ~a  | jc  ~ mvB J@ Z v cAB cF wS Ac i@ ~ PcA@ T^hOH  @ OUS sc S | ~O AvAg OSTZ  j@BS @Ac S @U A@ @q c c @Ac mvB U oS |

SfU  Aa ~w c R BU Tlc mvB @fgc UAU coS  swUc^f @Aci @AaUS (UqAve sw), cU scS, rZAr i oS cUU, ~AT sq SfU, j@v fAoSF@ Z ~A |  ~S T cH @ Sc |

wU oS | wmv B jA W gBS B v@ v@ @ v@ AU, g @ wA wU jU : ~S |

wU wU oS, TA A A wU | fA, jc sA j@v mvB, q, TS ..

gU@ OZ U U, wU UU | @TS Aw OZ @US | ~wq ATSATS @ oS cUU :

@U ~S A@ Zc ~Aco AaU, fA, R BUZc UAO @A AAaU, ~AS SA@ ~c o @SV@ a ZS S | jS A AaU  ?

 jSAaU, A@ v cv  | wv Ur cB W SA@ R j@vq @SV@ AaU, v ~AT aJO SA w^ Aa | ZRq U S A@a |

jZS @f j@v O v cUc ?

rS jA@ |  ~r  cUUS fAoSF |

FJ FJ cUS | Ncq mvB OU waS , TS jq j@ Wxv ~wq ~T wT d @ @ AaU...

~T ~FA^ TASv ? v A@ U ?

WT d @a oS | @UA cF | jc Bw   Sq | wv Ur gC a cf^ U | AS ASv @ATAv @, OAA@ cJo, j@  j@  @ jq AcU @Ts Sca oS | BS @U@ @AcAr\f@ ~S vS AvA@v, wmv B cA@e (jA), Ov vFA cA@e (ASv jA, A Av ASBS cAr @ ca S, q ~wHF Av) | ja Ur BS r@ U@U @Ac@ ~F@Tv @, c@mv F@v, U F@v, O--Acmv |  R @ATAv Tc TcqU v ~ @ ZO Ac  @ATAv aU AcQg, v^v @ATAv @TAcA, jcR Wv wa jq ToF |

j  ~a U@U a@A @Ac Ac 2007 AOAl @AcSf AUT AsAw BSF ~oS SfTkA ~U PA, AOAl UZ, c m@ S | ~AA BSF U F wUcm ~ U  jqc AcBAc  ~aq | cB AcU o | mS  Tv ASv | ccUU  mv, OU OU AOAl @U ~  AwA\v wS ~ AAvw\ AU  TS  | T^ U@ cU, oS ~R  ~a | @TAv cFc, cTWJK Zc @wB wHTA AAmvAcrS : jc R ASB | a oS T |

c, wv ~SS @q c cBv ? jv  ocF ToFq AaU S |

jTcm jq ScfS TF @f @ TU c BSA^@ @ ?   @ oS sv cUU, v  ASBq S U S, @H @S g d  wa B AIJAIJ @ @Sv | TvTv  s cUU,  ~ J, BSA^@ j@Av Q AUvU TFwABS, jce fAoSF j@BS TS @Ac |  AAS BSf, ~ Ur BSA^@ lc TSK @UFH BSF jce ~AU@ empA@ gcTkA ^S BSF, TS B @ U@A UR, jTk oS @v v | @p @ sA jc T fAoSF mvB i S, U  c ASEO oS jq cFv @ATAv @a  @c |

ZJA@ iUS fAoSF | SF@ B S oS, jc AT @AS ? Rq SfU , UfUT ZU, R ~cpA @ BSF v@ ASha S ? ~Tq @AcU wU @JA @JA c, ~ ~T @JO@U AZ B B v@ AS OU sc ! qA@ SA@ ?

S--S--S--S fA, AF cUAa, @f aJ cU c cUS, cUAa, RJ @ A@ha SSAS, Ur BSwH TZ O... ~T TZ O ...

TcqU cB Ri oS | oS, cAU@ Z sha | ~Fe@ AA T@ ~ i sha wT | @c ~ j@ WKH @c ?

fA, AB, jZS@ T OUS, ~AT ZAa @f @ s | ~S@ v ~i vS U R ~wq cFcm @ Uc |

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fAoSF mvB iUS  S ATASv  | ~AA ~gFw coS, m@S, oS ~AA jT jU j c cp, c  wa | T AcrU @J f (MBSF cUvS @v) UU U vv @AaU, BU OqAaU S, UR U AO AO TSSf gA c oS ~SR BU UaS QH | AU, v, c  wa, rK B@f gA T cr @US AvAg ZF, gf @Ac T A AASAo @Ac, wArfU cT^f A@Ac, fAoSF OoF |

AT ArAU, wUA ArS rA, UU JA TU, ~ OU jU ZJ UU @ @JAO A PA w TU BS vAv ~Fe@ (U@U) ZS Tq@ WKH @aS fAT ~wTSc :  ~  ~A Pgc g, d wBS WS wf c ... ~T c A @Ac, TSK @Ac, BSwH @Ac fAoSF OoF ~S wH @aS | J ~wTS ~T oSF ... "TSK  A w / TSK  U A@ / ASO @a ASO q w / SSBU g s s ~JAZ / @wB cS @a / wA cR Sq wA / AUvTFw Tq cJO@ / cB T Z sq AZ..."

rK ~erv fAoSFq UZ @ ~cpA | jq UZv w kB wTceU Av TmUf @wB Q @ ~gc lc eZF c^  sR UQF rA ATS ~AB j@ @Acg AS i @AaUS | s @S AUvTFw @a jq UqSAU j@ ~TW c cS @ ~S |

T aS ZS oS TcqU @S JB OJOha, cB, jQAH ~T B O@ v@ o A S, gfKH @ | @Fr ... FJ FJ, @Frq @ |

cB cH cq Ur ST@ B, @AS AU jce U@U ~ABrS S : TAB@ @ @ BSF  ^Z | AQH^f AAnrfU Av @S cU, wArfU cT^f AFg RS@ mS @ @  S cU gfKH :Z | RJ aU@ ca @ U @TAv ArAZ OUa oS | a, RS vTR Zv , jT jU j R oS  q | cq@  S ZU A@ ~ empA@Tf OU ? AFg j@v S j@v AOmf ~cS Z RS gfKH qha | swvq S S |

oS cqA Ai@ U@@q S @a |

(c-42, Ac, 2008)

~UH: U TBT

jq UZ ~S @TS UwU ?